Changes

I have decided to put more effort into blogging. I will update on a regular basis. I have decided to strong in the Lord. I always, always curtailed my walk with God with non believers. I so ashamed as I write this. But I did it, because I didn't want to come across as "holier than thou". I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I have decided to start before more open about my walk and my struggle. We will see how this goes. Also, I have decided to fully trust in God with my future. Especially regarding finding a husband and having children. I realized last night when I was talking to Morgan, that I second guess Him. With the things that I treasure the most. Most of the time I feel like I will never meet anybody or get married. Something that I yearn for so much, I truly want a husband, a man that I can trust and depend on. But in my heart I feel like it is a far-fetched dream. But I KNOW all things are possible with God. I know he can make the far-fetched a reality.

P.S.S. I have finally been honest with my BFF. There are so many times that I hold back. I think she does the same. But, I want the best for her and if giving my opinion is what I need to do than I will do it.