Summer is over! But it was a great one. Maybe the best on record. Every weekend I had a function. But, August was mine. Every weekend I went out with a great group of friends and truly had a great time. I went to Beth's Birthday Barbeque, then Phil's Neice &  Nephew's 100 Day celebration, and then we went to the beach at Beth's parents house. That was such an GREAT day. I had so much fun. We had great icecream at Dom's in Manahawkin, NJ

Here is a pic of my friend on Long Beach Island by the Light House.

Beginning of A New Season

Well fall is here! I can't believe summer is over. I look back on this summer are one for the record books. I was talking with Hil and we reminiced about how our group bonded the night of Qihvah's wedding. We went bowling and then went out to Friendly's to celebrate my birthday (unbeknownst to me).

I want to do a brief recap of the last part of the summer with my friends at Fellowship. I hope to flesh them out on a leter post. So here goes:

7/28
Bowling & Friendly's
Attendees:
Bowling Team A - Sandy, Rob E, Phil, Jeanie
Bowling Team B - Me, Beth, Karla, (& unfortunately Tom)

8/4
Pool ( I didn't attend)
Attendees: Sandy, Rob F., Phil

8/12
Beth's 40th Birthday BBQ (I met her mom & dad)

8/19
 Mom's Birthday

8/25
Gavin & Zoe's 100 Day Celebration
Attendees: Phil, Me Sandy, Beth
Friendly's
for dessert. This was the night the iliteration "Phil Fong's fault" started!

8/26
Pastor Andy's & Phyllis's Game night
played washers with Phil, Sandy, Jim, Me
He would pick up the washers, and I would pick them out of his hand.

(Found out Pastor Don lived next door. Met his wife and walked through their garden and saw their chicks. Held a chick for the first time.)

9/1
Beach Day
Car #1
Beth (Driver), Sandy, Rob E, Rob F

Car #2
Phil (Driver) , and Me

(The coinage of the "Magificent 7")
Dinner @ Beth's Parent's house
Mr & Mrs. Brewster, Aimee, Beth, Rob F, Rob E, Sandy, Phil, & Me ( Karla couldn't make it)

9/2
Met up with the Brewster's and picked up my wallet.
Lunch @ Sage Diner
Attendees: Jeanie, Rob F, Rob E, Me

9/8
Pelham Bay & Golf Course
we didn't meet because we wanted to meet every other weekend. This weekend I went to Marcia's Menu tasting

9/9
First day at Equipt w/ Rebecca Sharp

Lunch @ Perkin's
Attendees: Phil, Aimee, Rob F, Me, Beth

FOCUS
Paul Tripp Study Session #5
Breakout session Small group
Phyllis, Sandy, Dale, Rob E, Phil, Diana, Me
(Phil talked about his son and still not being able to see him)

9/15
Alpha Leader/Helper Training
Attendees: Gwen & Me

Pitch & Putt
Dinner @ Applebee's Across the street
Attendees:
Team #1: Pastor Andy, Phyllis, Phil, Rob F.

Team #2: Me, Beth, Sandy, Carabeth, Dale


9/16
Support Karla and hear her sing (we all sat together for 11 service)
Beth, Me, Rob E, Rob F, Kristen (Rob F friend), Sandy, Phil, Karla, Jim,  Gwen (satin the pew behind us)

Lunch @ Angelo's
Attendees: Dale, Rob E, Rob F, Karla, Beth, Me, Phil

9/19
 ALPHA
Dinner Table - Diana, Nneka, Phil, Sandy, Ling

9/22
 Visit Karla in the hospital (Hopewell, NJ)
Attendees:  Me, Gwen, Phil, Beth

Barnes & Noble
Bought a hard copy of The Shack for Phil to finally read

9/23
Lunch @ Perkin's
Attendees: Phil, Rob F, Me

Ollie's Discount Stuff
I bought Charles Stanley Bible (for me) & Phil bought Children's Book (for his son)
He told me about a patched up bsketball his friend gave him recently and it reminded me of a ball he use to play with
his son.

FOCUS

Paul Tripp's Study session #6
Small group - Phyllis, Me, Beth, Jeanie

Spoke about wanting to get married and have babies

I read the following off of Caroline's blog in  and I think it rings true for me right now.
"If fact, if I were to share all the little pieces with you it might make you have anxiety too. ha! But no matter what, I keep reminding myself that not every blessing comes in the way we think it should come. And not every ugly/hard thing is bad. I am finding that these hard things just might be big blessings in disguise. A part time teaching job might not be so bad. And money is just money. He has faithfully supplied my every need from the moment i was being formed in my mother's womb.











He knows the end. I am in the dark but He is light...He can see it all."



I have a million and one questions about issues that I am currently going through. It seems that I could flee and avoid a lot of heart ache. But the Lord never saif the road would be easy. At times I have thought, I have live my life straight, I never got my self caught up with different issues  I don't have baggage from my past. Does it make sense to know at 30, to get myself caught up a situation now? It seems so "greener" in everyone else's life, why can't it be green for me, I would even take baby green! But I realze I am being selfisand only focusing on myelf. Ut I believe in what I have always said. I want to only do things that glorify God and futher His kingdom.

Also, on Savannah Hill Conner’s blog (on April 4, 2009), She wrote, " i ran across this quote from matt chandler. i'd be lying if i didn't say i wish i hadn't read it, but it's good. really good, actually. and i am challenged by the truth in his words...







"my problem was this, I found the world crammed full with neat Christian girls and very few godly women. i would meet girls that were beautiful, and who were talented and who were morally upright and pure, but there was no love, no strong passionate love for Jesus Christ & His kingdom...and there was no drive to be completely His, there was no essence of, "i love the Lord above all things".






to love Jesus above all things..."


I WANT TO BE THAT GIRL.

Today is my favorite day of the week. FRIDAY!!!! Yes, I get to go home, and stay up late and sleep late Saturday morning. I love it. I especially love it because, I went to bed last night at 10:30pm and woke up at 1:05am, and could not go to bed for the life of me. I did everything, This has been my delimma for the past 4 weeks. It seems that the only time I can relax is on the weekend in my own bed. No more housesitting for me. I will forever miss my home land :(

New York City! I will always love you, but you are no good for me. So I went out with my new friend ( inpromptu lunch) about two weeks ago! I can't believe it. My first outing. I almost said no, I'm such a dunce. But, thought about it and said yes.He was so gracious. I was going through something trying and he was there for me. I need someone to talk to and I am glad it was him. I wonder what God has in store for me. I right now need not to question HIM and lean not on my own understanding. But enbrace God and all of his glory, for he has my best interest at heart. I hope to see my new friend this weekend. I didn't see him last Sunday, because he was sick, but he did email me. But he never replied to my email. What is that about? Get it together buddy. I don't know about this (of you)! Let me be patient, for he has been extremely patient with me.

Many Blessings,

Transitions in Singleness: A Work in Progress

Wow, 2 posts within hours of each other. I am just going through a lot right now. This is all brand new to me and I don't know how to handle everything, anything for that matter. Today, I came across this passage from “Laurie’s Life” blog dated 12/10/10. It’s funny how when you are single you can become so frustrated and there seems to be now resolution of finding your husband, But when there is a possibility of someone, you wish you could go back and cherish your singlehood. I have a pattern of always looking back and not being present in what’s going on now today. I need to cherish the singleness that I have and at the same time enjoy my new friendship. Whatever God's plan is for my life, I pray that I am totally submissive to His will for me and I am reassured that He only wants the best for me.


Laurie says:

I feel like the Lord has prompted me to encourage a single girl or two today.I remember when I was single that the holiday time was usually the hardest for me. I always wanted a man at Christmas time! I want to remind you today that God loves you more than you can ever imagine.Have patience in waiting for God's very best for you! I promise that waiting on HIS CHOICE will be better than you can ever imagine. I always wanted to make something work out when I was lonely and that is never the wise thing to do. Let the man pursue you!Enjoy the life God has given you today! Don't look to your future with anxiety. Rest in the fact that you have lots of wonderful things to look forward to. I can never have that first date with Steve again or our engagement,etc.The verse that I have said over and over this week is James 4:8, "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."He is the cure to your loneliness. You can have the best husband in the world and still be lonely. ONLY GOD can complete you and give you what you need.HIS timing is always perfect. HE is never late!

I really needed to read this. I have been fasting, praying and reading on all this stuff. And these encouraging words are a much need help. This is not the first time I have read something like this. But, sometimes you can't fully appreicate the message until you're in a different place in your life, and it might be too late. I hope it's not for me.

I know I make like it's the sadest thing in the world, but I am excited too. I know I will look back at this time and wish i was enbracing this change, but it's hard!

New Chapter: What's Next......

Last night Alexis and I went to a screening of a movie on the Lower East Side. I want to refrain from mentioning the title of the movie because of its graphic and crass nature. (I should have read the plot before seeing it.) But I told her my big secret and I felt so sad after. I knew if this does come to pass, that our relationship will dramatically change. I know it will never be the same. Last night I thought back to when she was pregnant with MIchelle and I knew then our relationship was going to change. That she was on the cusp of something awesome: Motherhood. And now I am wondering if I am about to turn the page on a new chapter in my life. Is it finally my turn, this is what I always wanted and I am so sad about how its going to totally change everything I hold dear. But, I know I am not doing it for me, but my heavenly father. I want to honor Him and do His will for my life, because only good can come of it. I only want to do whatever glorifies Him and that brings glory to His kingdom.

Its now 8:30am and I am at work, smh, with a big deadline hanging over my head. I will add pics later.

There's a Match

Last night I received an email that I got a match. I just responded to it and answered some questions. We will see where this goes, hmmmm......