New Chapter: What's Next......

Last night Alexis and I went to a screening of a movie on the Lower East Side. I want to refrain from mentioning the title of the movie because of its graphic and crass nature. (I should have read the plot before seeing it.) But I told her my big secret and I felt so sad after. I knew if this does come to pass, that our relationship will dramatically change. I know it will never be the same. Last night I thought back to when she was pregnant with MIchelle and I knew then our relationship was going to change. That she was on the cusp of something awesome: Motherhood. And now I am wondering if I am about to turn the page on a new chapter in my life. Is it finally my turn, this is what I always wanted and I am so sad about how its going to totally change everything I hold dear. But, I know I am not doing it for me, but my heavenly father. I want to honor Him and do His will for my life, because only good can come of it. I only want to do whatever glorifies Him and that brings glory to His kingdom.

Its now 8:30am and I am at work, smh, with a big deadline hanging over my head. I will add pics later.

There's a Match

Last night I received an email that I got a match. I just responded to it and answered some questions. We will see where this goes, hmmmm......

Changes

I have decided to put more effort into blogging. I will update on a regular basis. I have decided to strong in the Lord. I always, always curtailed my walk with God with non believers. I so ashamed as I write this. But I did it, because I didn't want to come across as "holier than thou". I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I have decided to start before more open about my walk and my struggle. We will see how this goes. Also, I have decided to fully trust in God with my future. Especially regarding finding a husband and having children. I realized last night when I was talking to Morgan, that I second guess Him. With the things that I treasure the most. Most of the time I feel like I will never meet anybody or get married. Something that I yearn for so much, I truly want a husband, a man that I can trust and depend on. But in my heart I feel like it is a far-fetched dream. But I KNOW all things are possible with God. I know he can make the far-fetched a reality.

P.S.S. I have finally been honest with my BFF. There are so many times that I hold back. I think she does the same. But, I want the best for her and if giving my opinion is what I need to do than I will do it.

Trying to plan my 30th birthday, with no definite destination for a vacation. I have selected a handful of friends to celebrate with and am so excited!!!! But I can't find a destination ;( . I have looked everywhere.

At a crossroads, to party or not to party

Should I plan my own birthday party?

Well the month of January has been extremely busy. I had two events back to back, tow consecutive weekends. I almost went crazy. I will tell you about the first event. It was an event for a dear friend of mine. I hosted a baby shower for my dear friend Lisa King (nee’ Gaines). When I first got involved in this event, I had a totally different vision. But I came out beautifully. I loved the venue, especially since it was in a church. But I hosted the shower with Lisa’s BFF Dawniel. She added some awesome details to the shower that were intricate, and tied everything together. While we were setting up, I came up with the idea to close off part of the room from Lisa and the other guests. We created two settings for her. The larger room was the dining area; Lisa’s meet & greet and eat area. I t was nicely decorated. But all of the show pieces were in the smaller, closed off room. The second room had a decorated chair, 3-D cake, a diaper cake with favors, some pictures and all of her presents. I especially wanted to have this “secret room” because someone accidently told Lisa of the details of the shower.

This was the larger room were everyone gathered.

These are pics from the other room:

Clothesline spelling out "BABY KING"

One of the frames that I created for Lisa

The 3-D cake Lisa's sister made.

The diaper cake and favors I made.

Christmas 2010

I know it has been some time since I have been on here. But, as a resolution, I want tkeep my blog updated, even if they are brief blurbs.

Christmas.I love this time of year. This my favorite time of year. I love CHristmas, it is such a joyous time of year. But, most importantly, i love the Reason for the Season.

But I haven't been truly enjoying it. I have been so sad. I don't know the source of this feel. I jus pray that God helps me out of it. I so desperately, want to savor this time, I went out with a good friend of mine, Paula S. I haven't seen Paula in over a year. I that time, Paula had a baby girl. I am so happy for, she is such a sweet girl. In true fashionista style, I had to get something nice for baby Isabella.

This gorgeous dress is what I purchased at Macys.

I lovd it the moment I saw it. Actually my mome eyed it first. She has a true eye for fashion. But I knew I had to have it. So I boxed it up to give Paula for our get together. When she opend the box, she started to tear up, we both stood there and cried. I was such an emotional moment. I always felt like I had a bond with Paula, and despite a year long lapse, we met and chatted like it was our regular weekly get together. So when we parted to go home, we said we will start meeting on a monthly basis. I can't wait. Paula is such a great girl, and she has an awesome family.

So, I am planning to do a few things to keep me out of the winter blues.

First, I wamt to take my goddaughter Chloe' out to see Wintuk.

I especially want to go because, this is there final season, and I haven't gone yet.

I am also, planning a friends' baby shower. I have recently go into designing events. I never thought I had a creative bone in my body. It's something I truly have a heart for. Over the Christmas break. I am going to work on onesie, to put on a clothesline. I am going to get fabric letters and sew them on the onesie. I don't know how I am going to do, but I want to try it out.