Today is my favorite day of the week. FRIDAY!!!! Yes, I get to go home, and stay up late and sleep late Saturday morning. I love it. I especially love it because, I went to bed last night at 10:30pm and woke up at 1:05am, and could not go to bed for the life of me. I did everything, This has been my delimma for the past 4 weeks. It seems that the only time I can relax is on the weekend in my own bed. No more housesitting for me. I will forever miss my home land :(

New York City! I will always love you, but you are no good for me. So I went out with my new friend ( inpromptu lunch) about two weeks ago! I can't believe it. My first outing. I almost said no, I'm such a dunce. But, thought about it and said yes.He was so gracious. I was going through something trying and he was there for me. I need someone to talk to and I am glad it was him. I wonder what God has in store for me. I right now need not to question HIM and lean not on my own understanding. But enbrace God and all of his glory, for he has my best interest at heart. I hope to see my new friend this weekend. I didn't see him last Sunday, because he was sick, but he did email me. But he never replied to my email. What is that about? Get it together buddy. I don't know about this (of you)! Let me be patient, for he has been extremely patient with me.

Many Blessings,

Transitions in Singleness: A Work in Progress

Wow, 2 posts within hours of each other. I am just going through a lot right now. This is all brand new to me and I don't know how to handle everything, anything for that matter. Today, I came across this passage from “Laurie’s Life” blog dated 12/10/10. It’s funny how when you are single you can become so frustrated and there seems to be now resolution of finding your husband, But when there is a possibility of someone, you wish you could go back and cherish your singlehood. I have a pattern of always looking back and not being present in what’s going on now today. I need to cherish the singleness that I have and at the same time enjoy my new friendship. Whatever God's plan is for my life, I pray that I am totally submissive to His will for me and I am reassured that He only wants the best for me.


Laurie says:

I feel like the Lord has prompted me to encourage a single girl or two today.I remember when I was single that the holiday time was usually the hardest for me. I always wanted a man at Christmas time! I want to remind you today that God loves you more than you can ever imagine.Have patience in waiting for God's very best for you! I promise that waiting on HIS CHOICE will be better than you can ever imagine. I always wanted to make something work out when I was lonely and that is never the wise thing to do. Let the man pursue you!Enjoy the life God has given you today! Don't look to your future with anxiety. Rest in the fact that you have lots of wonderful things to look forward to. I can never have that first date with Steve again or our engagement,etc.The verse that I have said over and over this week is James 4:8, "Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."He is the cure to your loneliness. You can have the best husband in the world and still be lonely. ONLY GOD can complete you and give you what you need.HIS timing is always perfect. HE is never late!

I really needed to read this. I have been fasting, praying and reading on all this stuff. And these encouraging words are a much need help. This is not the first time I have read something like this. But, sometimes you can't fully appreicate the message until you're in a different place in your life, and it might be too late. I hope it's not for me.

I know I make like it's the sadest thing in the world, but I am excited too. I know I will look back at this time and wish i was enbracing this change, but it's hard!

New Chapter: What's Next......

Last night Alexis and I went to a screening of a movie on the Lower East Side. I want to refrain from mentioning the title of the movie because of its graphic and crass nature. (I should have read the plot before seeing it.) But I told her my big secret and I felt so sad after. I knew if this does come to pass, that our relationship will dramatically change. I know it will never be the same. Last night I thought back to when she was pregnant with MIchelle and I knew then our relationship was going to change. That she was on the cusp of something awesome: Motherhood. And now I am wondering if I am about to turn the page on a new chapter in my life. Is it finally my turn, this is what I always wanted and I am so sad about how its going to totally change everything I hold dear. But, I know I am not doing it for me, but my heavenly father. I want to honor Him and do His will for my life, because only good can come of it. I only want to do whatever glorifies Him and that brings glory to His kingdom.

Its now 8:30am and I am at work, smh, with a big deadline hanging over my head. I will add pics later.